Where do I even start?
That seems a little trite given nearly nine months of silence.
2020 was not a good year. For anyone, I’d imagine except perhaps the owners and stock holders of a number of tech companies that have probably been thanking the pandemic every day as they watch their bank balances rise. And honestly, I don’t have as much to complain about as some people.
I started 2020 filling in for a higher position at work and during the year I was able to gain permanency in the role. Despite daily changes for a few months as to what the job entailed as new restrictions and rules were rolled out I kind of kept things together at work.
Unfortunately, while I was keeping things together at work I was struggling with everything else. I had to give up going into twitter for a bit because I ended up just doomscrolling. Whether it was fires at the start of the year, the usual political sniping, then daily updates on the number of people infected, areas under lock down, and the tragic numbers of those who were dying around the world, I just felt like I couldn’t breathe. Even later in the year when I thought I could just check in on a few things, I got drawn into reading about the increasing potential of trade wars, shortages of supplies, unemployment figures, and then of course the American election which kind of dominated everything.
In the midst of all of that, my own health took a turn for the worse as I found myself suffering fairly persistent headaches. I’ve always had periodic migraines but this was new. Even in a town where there were no covid infections, it took nearly a month to actually be able to see a doctor (everyone who even had a sniffle had to go get a covid test and the backlog wiped out our already limited health services). Then they wanted some tests done, which took forever. Finally they sent me for an MRI which required travel out of the region which meant time off work so that took a bit to organise and ultimately came up with nothing.
By September, I was still getting headaches but I’d kind of figured out how to minimise the debilitating effects and could function most of the day and was kind of getting ready to come back to the blog at which point I realised how long it had been. It was then I started wondering how to come back and what to say. Then I thought there was no point starting right before I was going away for a week and so on and came up with a number of procrastinations to avoid writing this post essentially.
But I missed it. I missed my blog and I missed all the wonderful people I used to talk to. I felt bad that I couldn’t be there for others during a year where everyone was going through so much. I’ve finally got myself into a place where I am ready to take the plunge and come back. I reached out to Irina and she, being the wonderful person that she is, gave me yet more encouragement and hopefully we’ll be collaborating on a piece in the near future once both of us are a little less busy.
So yes, I am back.
At this stage my plan is to try to post at least once each week and gradually build up to more. Some weeks I might be more available than others so will write more.
I am not going to restart my patreon for the foreseeable future. My real world work commitments won’t allow me sufficient time to really work at making the blog more full time at this stage.
I’ve got a lot of anime from 2020 to catch up on. I’ve got a lot to look forward to in 2021.
To my readers who see this one, I am sorry for my absence. Hopefully you will drop me a comment below letting me know how you are and what you are up to. Also, if there was an anime in 2020 that was ‘amazing’ and a ‘must watch’ let me know, as I’m starting to compile a list of shows I need to do a catch up watch of.
One thing I did finally do in 2020: I finally watched Cowboy Bebop. I will review it very soon.
Thanks for reading
100 Word Anime.